It’s time for a new chapter. I want to get back to being who I was before all the abuse. I know on some level I’ll never be able to be who I was back then, in a way I feel I’ll be better. With all the awful things that came from that abusive relationship, it also taught me so much. It definitely showed me I’m much stronger than I thought. And that no matter what, my family is there for me.
I’m scared though. What if I just fall back into the habits I want to get away from? What if the temptation to drink is stronger than I am? What if I fail? I’m trying to ignore those fears and trust in God for strength. But damnit it’s scary. I’m so scared I’ll let people down. I’m scared I’ll let myself down. I’m scared I’ll be stuck in this same spot, spinning my wheels and getting nowhere.